One more thing..

O ya, let's refresh my life together alright?

I need you with me.

Need you to help me.

=)

Guess this is for you.

Hey sweets,

I had been thinking about things lately while you're not here with me.

How people are against us. How much more I need to know about you.

I don't know, everything.

I am having lots of thoughts up my huge brain.

A lot of thoughts which I can't explain.

What I can conclude is that.

I care about you.

I want you safe.

I want you with me.

I want to know more about you.

Come back safe each time you go away alright?

I appreciate that.

Thank you.

The 2nd day

It is really funny how life actually takes you on a trip.

Up and down it goes, just like how a roller coaster takes you.

I don't know why am I feeling like how am I feeling now.

Now, I feel like going on a trip. Maybe for a month or so just to 'refresh' my life abit.

Keep all those wanted friends, banish all those who ain't worthy to be kept.

Just be by myself, maybe with him as well, but DEFINITELY not with my family.

Yesterday, someone hollered at me.

This is in regards to how I pushed the blame to him and stuffs like that.

Hmmm.

Well kiddo, I guess that's life.

I can't relate to you nor comment on anything that you said because it's purely not what I am expecting from a grown up man.

I am just purely speechless.

I don't appreciate name calling as well if you don't mind and you do know what I am sensitive to yet you just went on with it.

Your actions doesn't tally with your saintly talks anyway if you realise.

So, I don't know.

I'll just treat it as memories instead.


To him, Lord, please bless him and take care of him. It ain't fun to be in that kindda place. Amen.

I hate my future being revealed to me.

Ain't all these supposed to be part of life?

So as to be able to learn something out from it?

I hate my life.

It has already been revealed.

New start

This is a rather special month.

I've found a really unique one.

And I am really happy that things are looking so well as the time pass.

I know that he'll always be there for me whenever I need him. Except in his sleep.

Love you lots sweetheart.

The Single life

Life's rather packed now. Or rather, I shall assumed that it is packed.

I'm going out pretty often with different peeps, but somehow, I just kindda feel left out or outta place in a way.

Hmmm..

Maybe it is my way of adapting to my new lifestyle whereby I just gotta do everything by my own!

No one misses Bat anymore.
No one contacts Bat anymore.
No one wanna hang out with Bat anymore.

Gosh. I'm the whimpy old kid now.

I yearn for attention and love.

As always.

I cleared things up. I guessed things were awful and I was really afraid to face him or talk to him via phone.

Call me a bitch or heartless, things will just remain the way they are.

I don't know how to feel or what to feel.

I just know that things are over.

I am sorry.