Sweets

Well, I just have the feeling of adding a new entry to my blog at like 4.48am in the morning. So here goes!

Work had been suxy. It's so bad till I don't even feel like going to work anymore. Well, basically, i don't look forward to working and I'm not motivated to work by the people there anymore. Especially the fattest bitch there. They are just such a turn off. A major one though.

Corny and I are doing great, or rather, AWESOME! ha! I'm feeling happy that things are going well and my parents had actually agreed to meet him.

A note to the maize in my life:

I'm really happy to meet the first 'gay' guy whom I actually fell for. Well, it's rather amazing how things actually turned out the way that it currently is. I still remember the first time we met when I thought that you're a gay and no way will I ever be with such a person. However, to my surprise, you actually became the magical guy in my pathetic life who made me comforted. To be honest, I do not have the feeling of you suddenly MIA-ing on me or doing any stupid things to make me pissed off or whatsoever. I never had the fear of waking up one day or after a day of work and not able to see you waiting for me by your bike and smiling at me.

I'm sorry if I'm not able to reassure you on this relationship. I know that it totally suxs not to be able to have like a warranty for anything and you're just commiting yourself without knowing what the future holds and stuffs. Well, obviously, I sux at talking about such issues in front of you, so i'm just gonna like type it out here or something.

Being able to be with you and realising that you're actually a man is the happiest thing to happen to me after almost 2 suxy years of my life. With this statement, I can proudly say that, I'm definately going to put in more than 100% of my effort to make this thing work. Of course, both of us are still human at the end of the day and we do have mood swings. Pardon me if i were to be a bitch most of the times and naggy. At times, I'm just insensitive. So, im so so sorry if i were to offend you like BIG TIME.

I'm afraid to lose you. Yes i DEFINATELY am. Losing someone close overnight is a horrible thing to happen. It happened to me before and I won't want that to repeat again. You need assurance but I wasn't able to provide so, I'll just let time do the talking then =). I believe it will be enough.

Okie ba, I think I'm starting to be heading to lalaland because it's already like 5.12am. Man, I took so long to do a blog nowadays. Im getting old. CRAP.

O ya, by the way, thank you for picking me up after work without fail. It's something that no one actually did it without fail before. =))

Love ya lots baby, Muackies.

Lights Out. Zzzzz